"You know, I’ve been through a lot of deaths in my early years. The first thing that I try to do when I’m told that someone I know is about to die is deny it. Then I’ll come to some state of understanding, converse with those near me, esspecially the harbinger of the news, and finally get in touch with the victim. Tears are present in all stages. I don’t know if crying is selfish or appreciated in the eyes of those who surround me, esspecially the dying. I often wonder if they let my emotions take control of me out of pity, when I pity them."